Slept thru the night

My little one slept thru the night. Yehhh. I hope it continues.

God, protect my baby please

My heart goes out to all the parents who lost their precious little ones today in Sandy Hook.

God please take care of my little one. Please protect her the way you did me all these years.

And we can crawl now

My baby has been moving for a long time now but it has been backwards always :-). Now she is crawling forward. I hide behind the wall and say Amma kaanum. She will cry and lunge and move forward to get a glimpse of me :-). She has also been pulling herself up and can climb on me as well :-). This is such a beautiful stage. I can't wait to hear her call me Amma. :-).

My little one has an ear infection :-(. Hopefully she will get better soon. Love you precious.

That beautiful smile

I have never been so happy in my life. I feel blessed and thank God for giving me this little bundle of joy. The smile and happiness in her face, when she sees me, I will cherish all my life. Her face lights up when I enter the room :-). And a beaming smile follows it :-). I don't know how she and I will be when she grows up. But I will always remember this day, when I am her sun and moon and star. I love you my precious.

Clap clap

My little one clapped her hands for the first time. I am so happy :-). I have been showing her how to clap the last few weeks. She would take two blocks and hit it against each other. But today she moved both her hands together for the first time :-). Love you little one.

I am sorry little one.

Today was terrible. I clipped my baby's skin while cutting her nails. It bled quite a bit. My little one wasn't in too much pain. But it was probably the worst day in my life. Sorry Chinni. Please forgive me.

Am I losing it?

I don't know. Am I losing it? My only happiness is my little baby. Other than that I don't seem to have any interest. Am I alright? I am tired. I want to sleep. Sleep for a long time.

It's a long journey

I don't remember the last time I sat down doing nothing, thinking nothing. I don't know what I do everyday. Time flies. Before I know it's night and before I know it's day. Wish I could pause my life for a second the way I do with my TV remote. Pause to see the rain fall, pause to see the squirrel climbing up the wall, pause to enjoy my new couch, pause to catch up with life.